and then it's not...

It sucks when everything is going great...

and then it's not. 

You know, how when everything is going good, but then one little thing pushes you down like 500 steps. 

That was me last night, and who am I kidding, even today.

I can't stop feeling down...it's like this cloud crowding up my brain. It's not as bad as before. I credit that to the antidepressant, but I still feel it a little bit.

 I can't stop thinking about this ONE THING. 

How is it going to affect my life? How am I going to get through this? What should I do? What if I make the wrong choice?

I don't know what to do, and I just can't....I just can't.

It's the overthinking that kills me. What's frustrating is that people who don't have this really only understands it to a certain extent.

They say, "Dude, I overthink stuff all the time! You're not the only one". 

And, I know everyone does, but it's like 10 times worse than a normal person. 

That's the thing about anxiety, you overthink everything until you're left in a ball crying on the floor. 

...

Okay, so that's a little dramatic. But, still. 

It's the way I see it because that's what it does to me, and I am so tired.