Ughhhhhhhhh

Ugh.

I feel so ugh. 

I don't even know how to stop feeling like this.

It's probably my fault, though. 

I hold everything in. 

Nothing terribly horrible has happened, but there are these little things that I keep holding in. I don't know where to let them out...Who to let them out to...When you lose your best friend, how do you let yourself let other people in? It was easy with him. He knows me. No one else really knows me like him, but he's a stranger now. What if he's a stranger BECAUSE he knew the real me? Then, I definitely shouldn't show me to anyone else...

My little says I need to stop thinking that everyone hates me, but it's easier said than done. I do try, though, to let people in, that is. 

I'm frustrated because I HAVE been doing better. I've been happy. I guess it's just those little things that have piled up. They put clouds in the night sky. Hid the stars. But the stars are still there. I just need to keep remembering that. 

So I can stop feeling this way.

So I can stop feeling so,

 ...ugh..